" Why we Lie"

The More you'r Trusted, the More you'r Expected,

The More you'r Expected the More you Lie,

A Lie to turn the Faith into Purpose,

A Purpose to Decorate the fairy projection for World,

A World who always Discriminate,

A Non sense Discrimination to stop Indiscipline,

A Discipline to End Spontaneous,

A Spontaneity creating advocacy against Judiciary,

A Judiciary Placed above God,

A God created to hide Imperfection,

An Imperfection who has made Judiciary,

A Judiciary who Punishes Spontaneous,

It is spontaneous who is against Discipline,

It is Discipline which bring Discrimination,

It is World who Discriminates,

It is World for whom you Project,

It is World where you are Trusted,

It is World where you are Expected,

And It is the World where you Lie.

Sex “Worldly or Godly”

There are four means of reaching God; these means are Soul, Mind, Heart, and Body. The Soul’s way is meditation, Minds way is Creative Involvement, Heart’s way is Love and Body’s way is SEX.

Here I shall restrict my discussion to the fourth mean Body.

I doubt whether Body’s way to reach God through SEX is really Godly or is a hypothesis generated by my conditioned mind that may be highly influenced by great historical attempt of human race to project them superior over other existence and been innocent of this crime I have enumerated it as one among four means. Is letting someone else to feel your body could really be a spiritual intercourse or is a necessity of Man which separates us from divine?

The question that hovering around me is...... Can you have a glimpse of Divine through sex? Can there be a spiritual intercourse? And How far is it true that sex is man’s successful attempt to manifest God through body.

Let's find out these answers. There can be several ways of looking into this...let’s try this way, Have you ever tried to think that is it real you who exist while sex or is it a virtual you who is imagining sex. I doubt does sex really exist? Let it understand this way...Every soul took birth to Get Salvation from this world...to attain ‘Mochha’ and sex as body’s attempt to connect with almighty is dependent on the partner on other side who is just used as a medium, the person on the other side should never existed, this mean of getting connected with divine is not independent of partner and anything which is not independent is actually worldly the existence of partner proves that Sex as body’s attempt to get divine is worldly.

How far physical means of knowing each other’s body is truly love? The only name of true love that I understand is “Unconditional” and an “Unconditional Love” is certainly independent of SEX. Since you are using someone else’s body, you are trapped by desires, you are limited by expectation and thus your love can’t be unconditional and an conditional love can never led to divine.

Each time you lust, you realize that you are worldly you are not beyond and your physical existence is not at par with your soul’s wish. You feel pity you feel embarrassed that you have a bodily existence which depends on others to make it realize that it exists. It’s not complete all definitions of individualism are fake. Your craziness to get recognition for your physical existence from others led you to sex.

It simply imply that Man is an animal who says he is civilized and it is just his sexual desire which each time reveals that he is not other than animal. That’s why he has restricted sex in open space so as to strengthen the omnipotent imposed fact that he is different from animal.

Man has an inherent desire to rule, to feel superior given a chance no man will deny it and it is sex which always shatters his ego making him realize that you are not above; you are just an improved set of animal. And it is his sexual desire which certify him as worldly creature.

That is why he crated sensor board, religious institutions and all sort of such stupid mechanism and appointed a good collection of prejudice, hypocrites to govern them, who do everything inside close door and try to restrict open exhibition of sex with the fear that it will condense the gap between man and animal. Man can never been able to accept that they are same as animals, creation of the same creator. Because he always wanted to rule, his utmost desire is to feel superior. Why he wants to feel superior? Because every soul is creation and the creator, each soul takes birth to enjoy the creation to the extent of perfection and through this perfection as gateway to acknowledge that “he is almighty and almighty is he”. But he got trapped in this world of desire, need, expectation, ego, selfishness, and the superior among them...SEX, and forgets that he is almighty and deep down this truth keeps on telling him the only truth about him...but unfortunately most of us misinterpret this message as indication of superiority and then all attempts begins.

Sex can only led to divine if its base is Unconditional love or you have had so much of sex that no sexual desire remain unfulfilled, now there is nothing to repress you have became a non-sexual being not because you have repressed but because you got victory over it.

Sex is like a “town of hidden desires” and is so located that it separates “Godly town” and “Worldly town”. And there is no other way of reaching “Godly town” except this way of crossing "town of hidden desires"...however there are so many dummy “town of hidden desires” created by people in “World of Repression” just to make fool of others but actually there is only one such town rest all are fake. I have given it this name because it is separately located and here people come to fulfill their hidden desires. The “World of Repression” is a dummy world goes secretly in everyone’s mind those who are worldly and is highly recommended for keeping repressed sexual desires.It loves repression and hates expression.This "world of repression came into existence since the day people started repressing...an attempt to differentiate them from animals.

This “town of hidden desires “is world’s greatest tourism place and everyone in world take birth with the dream that once in their life they would visit this town. The town is very lucrative, captivating and the one who reach there never wants to go out. And one of the specialty of the town is that being in the highest point of this town one can see “Godly town”....but to reach this “Godly town” one must cross this “town of hidden desires” leaving behind all its attraction...but few just rest in the highest point of this “town of hidden desires” with the satisfaction that they have seen the “Godly town”....and they never understand that reaching there is not same as watching it from the highest point.....but most of them are so engrossed with this “town of hidden desires” that they can never think of leaving this town and they give a big name “Practical” to the residents of this town, just to hide their incapability of leaving it....and so they never feel Ecstasy...and they give another cowardly name “Unpractical” to those who dare to move towards “Godly town”....but its only those who reach there get divine...feel ecstasy...and become God.

So most took permanent membership of this false “town of hidden desires” created by “World of Repression “and spend a fake life....few reach up to the actual “town of hidden desires” and spend life being “Practical” and very few get liberation from this “town of hidden desires” both created by people in “World of repression” and actual “town of hidden desires” and finally reach “Godly town”.

( These are truly my views may be biased or exaggerated but its truly me....and i am certainly not here to give a final judgement...just wanted to share...arouse a thought...written on 10th sep 2011)

Welcome to 3rd World: "I hate being Institutionalized"

Welcome to 3rd World: "I hate being Institutionalized": Man has always been follower. He blindly follow God,Religion,society and these days he follows institutions.These institutions which has...

"I hate being Institutionalized"

Man has always been follower. He blindly follow God,Religion,society and these days he follows institutions.These institutions which has been constituted by man itself for consolidating man's effort towards a concrete result has now started Governing man. Now result decide action man became medium. The worst part is that these imposed Governance create pressure for action and i believe that any external pressure for action is actually killing that which is natural in man.

But despite this man will go on following because he has been conditioned to follow since the origin of civilization. Now this conditioning is so much deeply embedded that that his Genetic also get conditioned to follow.

"The world has been Institutionalized" Now man became slave and institutions(They) are God. Man do as they wish because of the fear of not being rejected in their world of society.Man has fear that they are the only one who make man capable of being accepted everywhere. Look, who is Governing...we are not free,our liberty is regulated by them.

Institutions which is a by product of society,since its inception has stopped man from enjoying his liberty,his right of experimentation without discipline just for fun,his right of recreation without regulations, his right of deciding his own standards without being preconceived by set ideals,his inbuilt spirit of getting connected with nature..sleeping in its lap and playing with its wonders,justifying the truth without being influenced by any command or leadership,building his rationality by being an unbiased observer, and going anywhere for an insight of knowledge without time constraints.

Man respects institutions because he thinks they give us discipline,recognition,power over others and authority to rule on few who are below us. Discipline which is most of the time ridiculous creating an environment which can never experience fun of creativity,recognition..which is valuable only in their created world "society", Power which keeps us restless and authority which is only for this world..which is not even 1% of universe. Man think they give us recognition..and this recognition for what...getting acceptability in society which is again a huge junction of fools...giving respect to hierarchy,rules,regulation,norms,discipline,pattern and so mean, concise,rigid and inflexible that it can never accept anything which is unorganized,which is irregular,which is not yet experienced,which has not yet happened,which is drifted from known patterns,or its better to say which is new and challenges their existence.

And man rarely recognize it...but he must understand that doing anything as per this conditioning will never give him real pleasure rather it builds false ego...a false sense of achievement....a hollow personality.

We must not forget that we are a part of creator...we have taken birth to create, to bring new thing into this world and making it a better place and what if,,we will start doing slavery for our own creation ???????????

In spite of this, i still dream for liberation from all this conditioning and i hope for freedom from all these imprisonment, and i will go on dreaming for liberation and i will go on hoping for our freedom.

"Its About a Girl"

An old Church in a Big city on a less Traveled Street(1), A midnight's lonely walk down the road with both sides yellow street lights(2), A new Age beauty with infinite passion(3), A newly arrived flower of Kaktus on a snow covered Graveyard(4) and the only duck flying towards the End of Ocean leaving behind its Assigned Destiny(5).

(1) An old Church has its own soul a Man-Made structure who now lives for his own..Carrying Essence of Past and Shattering Artificiality of Modernity. Not just An astonishing architecture but storing many folded stories,hiding beauty of history that's why Unique, which cannot be understood by all that is why less traveled..More Travelers will destroy it...uniqueness is there until not Generalized.

(2)A Midnight's lonely walk among yellow street lights is actually a rare balance between night's stillness provoking Inward journey with an advancement without artificiality... A development which is not Fake and an Innovation which soothes you.

(3)By new Age Beauty i mean a beauty which is adequately borrowed from past has appropriately blended all flavors of present and has a glimpse of promising future in it.

(4) External showing an honor struggle for best survival(Kaktus flower) though having an hidden internal which can be attractive to those for whom it appears beautiful from outside( as Snow covered Graveyard)..but unaware of that which is berried inside and harsh for those who dare to look inside but can't accept existence of Ugliness.

(5)"A Duck" because Which seems a Joyful ride from outside is actually a continuous struggle from inside.A duck because of the Courage to follow heart..and embarking on a voyage ..may be alone..like the only duck flying towards the end of Ocean...to reveal its mystery..to measure the unmeasured.

( Written for a Friend)

"Disconnected"

I don't know whether i am dunked or motivating myself to be disconnected. let My words speaks for me...

This is an end in itself. The end from where beginning will took birth. An end for which i always have waited for. An end which is a reunion, a reunion for celebration.....a state of hallucination.

Love is a sign of Dissatisfaction.....we aren't made to be dissatisfied.

This state of not belonging to anyone is leading me to perfection, a perfection which would never be appreciated, a perfection which never would need societal recognition. Sometimes it seems i am pressurizing myself to be in this state of abandonment but this desire must have an origin....the origin with an ardor to do of its own.

( Written when i was dunked on bhilwara..with my friends)

"Where is the will of LIGHT"

Lights,Lights everywhere somewhere getting reflected on someone's eye who thinks this light is essential for their happiness,somewhere decorating apartments making them more splendid and somewhere confining it within a Mud's shell (Diya) throwing illusion of being controllable,always has a purpose to bring an innocent smile.

Which one is more natural or it would be better to ask where is the will of light?

Whether with those who can buy it thinking they are helping it to show its most glorious form,who owns a false ego of owing light.....that artificial one,

or

With those who can't afford to buy it and have their own way of celebrating with light,they never think of controlling it,they find themselves very ignorant for this courage,they are happy with a glimpse of it.....however small...may be lapsing just within a second.

So the question remain unanswered where is the will of light? Can that which is man made...spreading rumor everywhere,projecting itself as light would be able to replace that which is Real ?

Let's ask light itself,but how can it say,can't it ?......... Does yet it has the authority to decide for itself ? or it has been seized which certainly doesn't mean that it doesn't has will.

May be its greatness has given it such an humbleness where it ignores those efforts where few feel they own light but they must understand that its not only infinite but that which is infinite starts within it.

(written on my lodge in ranchi,9th November 2010)

"Separation"

Earlier I used to say 'you' should take care of me but now there is no 'you' to blame.

Feeling like a branch who has the only dream of becoming a "Plant" but when the time came to actualize the branch realized that he can never become plant because he has never known how to grow, since he has always conditioned himself to be a 'Part' not a 'Self '.

It seems this is the autumn of my life after which I should regenerate but the autumn itself is so deeply established that I cant imagine of a spring after this,

It seems that now this autumn will be the season of my life,the spring of my life has passed,the best part of my life will never come back,the spring in my life will never come back..........

(written on train from Jamsedpur to Ahmadabad, the first time i left my family and friends for a professional start,09th April 2011-11am)

"And I became Sorhawasi"

Catchy hills as Protecting Roofs....Hidden Streams as Treasures....Welcoming smile of villagers brimming with inner satisfaction.....Purity of their heart as first drop of Rain and Innocent twinkling eyes of kids.. Delicate,Fragile and at the same time Notorious as the Petals of Rose Struggling in slow Drizzling for its existence are just the first Reflection of this Immensely Blessed Village as "Heaven on Earth" Sorha.

"Sorha an unpredictable village where imagination would be an illusion unless you reside there."

From the day we started preparation for rural camps,I started Gathering even the most tiny information though scattered in the farthest corner of the universe of my mind but unfortunately just the first reflection of the village has vanished my entire hypothetical structure leaving no hope for its further growth.

As our bus stopped there first thing I noticed was a ghostly Tamarind tree and a Sarkari school...surrounded everywhere with shouting kids. Even if it was just 17km from Ranchi any existence of living being after crossing that village was beyond imagination. I felt as if it was the End of World. I was scared to get down till strict order came from sir to leave the bus.

As we all successfully landed on a new Earth the habitants of that Earth intentionally and boldly arranged themselves comfortably for minutely watching our each activity and screening our each body part as if we were Aliens from a different planet.

The situation was so strange that it compelled me to shift my attention from what I would do for Survival to what I should do now that is unloading my luggages..........and soon learning survival tips became fun with the company of my colleges.

Trust is the most subtle nourishment for life and we start trusting life only when we live it in all its contradictions and opposites...which I realized when I became Sorhawasi.

There is no Road, no Electricity,which is so isolated that you will start doubting all technological advancement and will start asking yourself that whether you will be ever able to go back.

But Nature has poured all its beauty on it,................... there is no-where a place as such.........

Where water drops in streams work as tranquilizer.....

Where sitting in the rock on hills you can transcendent reality and can move towards Ecstasy...

Where there is no hope for Mundane and Commotion doesn't Exist....

Where Sunset was so densely Established that you would start believing that nothing exist in this world except this village....

Where Night is so dominating that you could easily forget the day and the morning is so rejoicing that you could easily forget your Past.....

Where the Morning air will penetrate you so as each atom of your body will attain Mocha and the sunlight is so captivating that it will make you feel unburdened from all Misdeeds.....

Where the people were so innocent that you would not dare to cheat them and their purity will compel you to accuse all Urban dwellers.......

And were so Welcoming that you would wish to forget your past identity and will be willing to Proudly Accept yourself as "Sorhawasi".

( Memorizing my days in Rural Camps....this is dedicated for all my friends in sorha....which will be always the best days of my life....and this is just the 1% of what i want to write for my camp days)

Welcome to 3rd World: When you are in "love"

Welcome to 3rd World: When you are in "love": "When your Entire Thought get caught in the Remembrance of one Special Moment Spent Together... When Entire Day u Wait for the Moment of..."

When you are in "love"

When your Entire Thought get caught in the Remembrance of one Special Moment Spent Together...

When Entire Day u Wait for the Moment of Togetherness...

When All Relationships Except that one Seems Meaningless...

When Each coming Footstep Reminds of the Same you are Waiting for....

When you would Search for the Same Face on Many Strangers.....

When you will be Proud to Drop Your Ego for the One's Smallest Happiness...

Then.....Then........You are in "LOVE".

A Lost Traveller: A Lost Traveller

A Lost Traveller: A Lost Traveller: "A lost traveller who once had a herd where he used to move like carnival and now unable to remember his identity as if a past that had past ..."

A Lost Traveller

A lost traveller who once had a herd where he used to move like carnival and now unable to remember his identity as if a past that had past since decades.

Since his new birth in a new world he has never known that herd and feels as if he has always been alone and finds that those who belongs to him can never think of such herd from where he has came from.

The only truth about him which is no longer a part of fact compels him to artificially connect with his surrounding and those who are around him willingly or unwillingly forces him to behave normally and he also act his best to meet those expected roles because he himself has forgot that once he had a herd where he used to move like carnival.