It's Over (from my side)

It's over from my side and I know you shall never be over but you will pretend better than anyone would have ever did,
You were a passing phenomenon and I thought you are going to stay, I allowed my delusions to wish that you are permanent but I didn't know that your nature is infidelity.

I am not blaming you or your nature or universe because what happened was Phenomenal. You were spontaneous and I was natural. And I am dying to tell you that your infidelity is no longer hurting me and I am not waiting for you to come back and please do never come back, because I would be changed, that phase would be over, I would have moved on, or probably I would like to live this believe.

So go on, Enjoy, Live like an eagle, I am happy because I always believed it was one-sided but it wasn't , rather you were more into it than me,but you just managed not to express it that way and you like it most when it was unrequited for me, because that gives you contentment. That's your nature, I am blessed that now I know the real you.

Stay blessed, and keep calm, because my knowing of you won't be a soothing experience for you. It shall break that vicious circle designed, manipulated, controlled and ruled by you, in which I chased you, I being mad at you, and you enjoy my vulnerability, my dependence on you, my incapability to find someone to replace you /someone more attractive than you, my restlessness for you, my fragility, and my insecurity of loosing you.

Oh! Jesus thanks for opening my eyes and I am very glad because I am actually not thinking about you, It's finally over.

And I am not writing it for you.

(From the pages of my dairy, posted as written)

Gomoh (My home town) : Find Yourself

Gomoh where you can smell Peace in Air,

Where life is at Ease and people are not in rush,

Where you can spend time with yourself whenever you wish to,

Where destiny is never odd,

Where you can feel absolute peace of night by lying on your roof’s floor watching clear view of constellation while a passing train’s whistle from nearby railway station as if in the background will make you feel nostalgic,

Where you can have sip of tea on evening’s while watching return of birds to their homes as if in the lap of blue Parasnath Hills,

Where you can dive in the fresh water of Jamunaiya River catching fish, burning woods and spending some good time with close ones among the nature,

Where every morning you can rejuvenate yourself with a pollution free morning walk,

Where on summer ever fresh orange flowers of Palash tree will bring smile of hope on your sweaty face,

On fall season light green leaves of seasam tree will pave your way on streets and  smell of Eucalyptus tree leaves will make your heart beat faster,

Where Red Bricked bungalows and churches will make you travel time leaving all worries for the present,

Where Guru’s Gupchup, Pachdu’s samosa, Bhokti’s kachouri and Bose’s Rasmalai are the cheapest yet best treat you can ever get,

A place for you if you are finding relief from modernity, just choose to take a casual walk after dinner and you can listen to the sound of crickets,

Where on a dry summer’s day, a newly arrived wind will gently enter without knock curiously blowing your house curtain’s and takes your sweat’s away,

 On monsoon’s it will smell of grain, may have just crossed paddy field and will be found excited for telling it's stories and sometimes it’s newly found joy will make you sing with it,

Where on a rainy night with no electricity, sweet noise of frog’s Ter Ter seems to be the only alive existence, and if you will allow it grow inside you, it will make you forget all your worries, while duck’s quack quack while walking carelessly towards pond down the street will once again compel you to land in your childhood when you used to believe fairy tale stories,

Gomoh, a destination you mustn’t forget to visit, if you truly wish to find yourself, spend time with your soul and listen what it has to say.

 (Dedicated to everyone of Gomoh and those who ever lived or visited )

Learn To Take Your Stand

Art, Music, Literature don't know boundaries, only hatred, arrogance and anger does. One who has just finished re-reading these lines and still couldn't understand should just stop reading this article, This one is certainly not for you, and my free of cost suggestion to you is "Get Educated" then you can come back and read this.

It's not about whether we should ban Pakistani Actors/ Artists/Serial/Movies or not?
It's about what your conscience says or in simpler words, what you want, your individual opinions/views, or you have nothing of your own. Don't just follow the trend, it's very sad to know that most people don't have their own stand, they are so confused, so they follow the popular opinion, it's easy to hate, it's even easy to say go back, it's our country, someone has just started this trend and almost everyone seems to be part of it, why?
Just because it makes you feel more patriotic, or it seems to satisfy your pride, so you even don't hesitate and going extra mile for whole heartedly supporting those who have given threating to innocent artist's, tell me or better ask yourself an honest question, what is the difference between them and those who announce "Fatwa", leave my country within 48 hours otherwise you shall be off with your head or you shall be killed.

Is it the right track? Is it the solution?

What I have found that, when it comes on taking stand, 99% of Indians are completely clueless and then they found themselves in a random boat whose driver is someone from the rest 1%, and believe me, it's only the drivers enjoying the ride, and the rest as expected don't even know the driver and they don't even care, as long as they could found their closed & loved ones (friends/family/relative/neighbors/people of same caste, community & religion) in the same boat , they even don't care where they are heading, we must understand that the driver could also be an anti-nationalist terrorist, a mad scientist, a selfish businessman, a criminal who has become politician, a corrupt government officer, or someone trying to exploit the situation for his/her selfish motive.

So you must be thinking what the common mass can do, for their stand in all general to sensitive matters they depend on newspaper/ news channels/ political leaders or someone either popular or rich or both, and the reason that they found themselves so helpless is because they never learned to keep themselves distracted from popular influences, history shows that it has always been successfully worked as opium for masses, now no more, my dear ones, it's time to wake up, don't just blindly follow, learn to take your own stand, develop your own conscience.

I like Fawad khan as an actor and Atif Aslam as a singer and let me remind you, there is nothing wrong about it, a person can't be hated based on his/ her nationality, I am not asking you to believe me, if you could put your prejudice aside for a while watch his Bollywood movies Khubsurat, Kapoor & Sons or his TV series Zindagi Gulzar hai, Atif aslam is a great singer, few of my fa-borate songs are sung by him like Aadat, Jeena-Jeena, Meri Kahani , Jalpari & Hamrahi, he has also given so many hit numbers to Bollywood.

I like them and will continue to like them, while most of you can choose to hate them and enjoy their ban, let's take a while to think beyond, what is going to happen will be worst for all of us, a country so far known for it's rich cultural heritage will in the coming future will be known for harassing artists, and becoming barrier in free expression of art/talent, and we shall all share this guilt, and that wouldn't make us feel proud.

Let's end this with this note: Don't just follow a popular trend, try to find what's yours in it and once you found it, learn to stand for it, as I did.

(These are my original views and certainly not written under the influence of any terrorist organizations/Salman khan/ Saif ali khan or karan johar)

NATURE WALK

So how you planned your weekend, haven't yet, so here is a tip go for Nature Walk. After a week's long tiring and frustrating work, when I felt totally consumed, I was thinking what could totally revive me. It could be watching a movie in Inox/PVR followed by lunch in a restaurant with families or friends, but I had always chosen to do that thousand's time and after that also I felt empty because I needed to do something for my tired soul. I could have chosen to visit a relative but then after a few minutes of interesting gossip, the same old patterns would get repeated followed by discussions, unwelcoming questions, debates, thereby making me feel totally exhausted.

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So I choose to carelessly walk towards river-side with a loose t-shirt and trousers, from my home our local jamunaiya river is just 1 km of a walk. And that walk worked wonderfully to totally revive me.

When I reached, I sat on a rock and put my feet inside water and few tiny fishes started playing with it, I don't know whether they were biting or kissing, it all felt so good. And I felt so relaxed as if my all negativity, tiredness, anxieties and frustration's were taken away.

I sat there for an hour becoming a witness of all kinds of sounds, communicating with nature- the manifestation of God Itself, the sound of the flowing river, the sounds of birds playing with water, the sound of the wind, the sound coming from trees & bushes, the fresh pollution free air. I could even enjoy breathing,  I felt so complete, the home for my soul and I felt, my soul, smiling after days, and it thanked me for bringing him here. 

Then I took a break from sitting and started walking with my sleepers on my hand, and the green grass felt so good, then I noticed that the river is left with no sand at all, it was all taken away for construction works. I remembered when I was in school and I with my brother come to the river we used to jump in the sand and sleep there with eyes closed feeling the coldness of sand on our back until we were scolded to leave. Where is that, how the kids of coming generation would experience that fun? maybe they will also just get to console with the stories of river's, birds and butterflies, though I  wish it never to happen but I can't trust human's, the biggest parasite, isn't it? 

 While returning home, I kept on taking pictures, and I was mesmerized with the beauty that could be found if I could just choose to walk a few kilometers among nature. Still, we would rarely choose to do that, why? because we are very busy, we are so occupied, in advancement & development,  so where this all is taking us, isn't it all very exhausting, aren't we losing the balance?

I will end this with you to think about it. And, of course, for next weekend plan a nature walk. You would be happy.

Can We Have Better Questions?

I am really pissed off, you meticulously plan a get-together with your friends after almost a year, and you have been desperately waiting for this day and guess what the questions asked and discussions surrounding a single question.

When are you getting married?

 If I am not married I am not on wrong side, Am I a terrorist? Or Am I a serial killer or Am I a Rapist? If not why the hell everyone is worried about it.

We used to blame aunty ji’s for keep sticking to this single omnipresent question of their existence, but are we youngsters really part of change, I am sorry to answer in ‘NO’.

We can’t expect greater changers in the part of old generation which is strictly stereotypical ,they may have been asked the same question in their young age and like rest they just choose to repeat themselves even if their own marriage is a perfect example of sucked-up relationships they would still expect others to be part of it.

I don’t know, why?  I really don’t have exact answer to this, so you may also apply your brain along with me around some possibilities, May be because they still believe in magic, since happy family is still not a myth, it’s called being hopeful, or they want to extract pure entertainment from your marriage ceremony, or just time pass since they have nothing better to do, whatever may be the reason, anyhow I am not against marriage, I am against this stupid question to be repeatedly asked as if this is  the only sole propose of our life.

For those who used to ask this with everyone with a smile must know that this is the most unintelligent question ever asked, if I will have to marry I will and you shall be invited to make some stupid arrangements for creating temporary fake impressions among visitors and thereby later you can rock the floor on an item song with absolutely absurd or no lyrics.

I just wonder why so many people with so much free of cost suggestions were not available when I really needed them, Like where you have been when I passed matriculation and needed career counseling and I was confused what to read which subjects to opt and what should be perfect career for me, and where you have been when I was depressed because of failure in a competitive exams and was seeking psychological guidance, or where you have been when I ate alone in a foreign land and desperately looked for at least a friendlier chat, where you have been? So please don’t come to me with a tag of well wisher and never required inquiry, sadi kab karoge?  

And then few people came with attaching one more stupid suggestion along with this one, “This is  right time for you”, stop this bullshit, and get rid of your prejudice and stereotypical thoughts, if you  have lost your ability to expect better things in life then it’s your problem not mine. Please don’t build wall for me.

So friends, why can’t we include better questions in our discussions? They not necessarily need to be national level problems but few basic questions which have never been raised in discussion can actually change the world, you will know it only when you will start asking them.

Can’t we start our conversation with a simple yet never asked question, Are you happy? If yes, great and if not what we could do for bringing more happiness in yours and others  life, how can we make our country/ world a better place to live, how can we be more creative and help others in their creative endeavors, and then we could also jump into diverse issues seldom being discussed, Like how to grow more trees and save the planet from global warming, how to save existing forests , how to save water, how to start saving water from house level, how to have healthy eating habits, how to be part of bringing social equality, how to stop humiliation, how to stop rape/killing, how not to be part of corruption and how to stop it, how to be more kind/sympathetic/humble and honest, how to be active part of pollution control, how to control population,  how to be part of poverty eradication, how to make a more tolerant/accepting and open society, how to eradicate superstition, how to save humanity from unnecessary rat race, growing restlessness and never ending materialistic pursuits,  and most important how to held a more positive and enthusiastic march towards a developed world, a world where everyone is happy, prosperous, healthy and at peace with others and with their own soul.

(My purpose is not to include all questions even if I wish to I can’t, I just want you guys to be more open, thoughtful and creative in asking questions, because remember  your questions can change the destiny of the coming world)

               

Why Tamasha Didn't Worked for Most ?

Yesterday I went to watch Tamasha for 2nd time, for me the most awaited movie of the year, and I found that so far it is definitely one of the most brilliant movie made in India. But I got dis-hearted knowing the comment's of other viewer's , and it made me think why it didn't worked for them and so I am trying to enlist the reasons,
1)  Most People in india are incapable to understand intelligent movie's, and this category includes two kinds,
one: those who don't want to understand, people of this kind keep an invisible wall for certain things, they have coded themselves for not confronting few things, they resemble robot shown in the movie but they would never accept it, if you will try to make them understand, they would say, this is the reality of life, to live like robot.
Then the other kind: they are the ones who should be called intellectually dumb, people of this kind need intellectual revolution in their mind, my suggestion for them is buy some brain. They are the people who live in big apartment, move in luxury car, they know how to earn money, they must have been regular visitor of movie theater's but certainly don't have enough brain to understand a simple story of a Storyteller.

2) Inability to Digest anything New
I will explain this point by an example, when I left the theater on interval for washroom, I heard an interesting conversation in Bojpuri among two friends sitting next to me,
 one was asking: So Ranbir has double role and Deepika met two different Rabbir, isn't it?
Another one was better: No, Yaar, Ranbir is mad.
1st one : Oooo.
So here people are so much habituated of double role that they expect it everywhere and what surprised me that expecting double role in every next movie is not uncommon for them. But saying the truth in a new, non-masala way is totally non-digest able. Now I am not surprised why the disastrous movies like Happy new year and Om shanti om comes out to be super hit.

3) Breaking Pattern is not allowed
Here most people has a patterned lifestyle, so how could they believe a movie, that say you can come out of the pattern, people are very rigid to this pattern, this include getting a settled job (settled means now you don't have to change), settled job so that you can get married, produce kids ( may be because everyone wants to contribute for us to become no 1 populous country in the world) , buying/building house/flat/apartment, buying insurance/mutual funds, huge bank balance, and few these days include vacations for a change, that too has became a fashion, anyhow you need something interesting to show others in facebook timeline because of your fear of being forgotten. So you never learn to live, you live for approval, you just assemble few routes already followed for making it appear as life.
So how could you understand a movie that is about finding your own way, finding your true purpose of being here, totally being yourself, breaking patterns, dropping masks , enjoying everyday every moment and not just waiting for holiday or vacation or retirement.

Or else Imtiaz ali should have made a movie on or around marriage theme, here people are very fond of marriage, for some the only purpose of taking birth is getting married, I am proud of you Mr Imtiaz, and Our Legend Mr A.R.Rahman who has composed two heart touching songs like 'Safarnama and Tu koi aur hai'.

I am writing this because I am very dis hearted, a movie which should be appreciated as reality check for all Indian's get so boring response, it's not the defeat of makers, it's the defeat of viewer who failed to learn, who perhaps has forgotten how to value the valuables.

(Readers are welcomed to share their views)