It's Over (from my side)

It's over from my side and I know you shall never be over but you will pretend better than anyone would have ever did,
You were a passing phenomenon and I thought you are going to stay, I allowed my delusions to wish that you are permanent but I didn't know that your nature is infidelity.

I am not blaming you or your nature or universe because what happened was Phenomenal. You were spontaneous and I was natural. And I am dying to tell you that your infidelity is no longer hurting me and I am not waiting for you to come back and please do never come back, because I would be changed, that phase would be over, I would have moved on, or probably I would like to live this believe.

So go on, Enjoy, Live like an eagle, I am happy because I always believed it was one-sided but it wasn't , rather you were more into it than me,but you just managed not to express it that way and you like it most when it was unrequited for me, because that gives you contentment. That's your nature, I am blessed that now I know the real you.

Stay blessed, and keep calm, because my knowing of you won't be a soothing experience for you. It shall break that vicious circle designed, manipulated, controlled and ruled by you, in which I chased you, I being mad at you, and you enjoy my vulnerability, my dependence on you, my incapability to find someone to replace you /someone more attractive than you, my restlessness for you, my fragility, and my insecurity of loosing you.

Oh! Jesus thanks for opening my eyes and I am very glad because I am actually not thinking about you, It's finally over.

And I am not writing it for you.

(From the pages of my dairy, posted as written)

Gomoh (My home town) : Find Yourself

Gomoh where you can smell Peace in Air,

Where life is at Ease and people are not in rush,

Where you can spend time with yourself whenever you wish to,

Where destiny is never odd,

Where you can feel absolute peace of night by lying on your roof’s floor watching clear view of constellation while a passing train’s whistle from nearby railway station as if in the background will make you feel nostalgic,

Where you can have sip of tea on evening’s while watching return of birds to their homes as if in the lap of blue Parasnath Hills,

Where you can dive in the fresh water of Jamunaiya River catching fish, burning woods and spending some good time with close ones among the nature,

Where every morning you can rejuvenate yourself with a pollution free morning walk,

Where on summer ever fresh orange flowers of Palash tree will bring smile of hope on your sweaty face,

On fall season light green leaves of seasam tree will pave your way on streets and  smell of Eucalyptus tree leaves will make your heart beat faster,

Where Red Bricked bungalows and churches will make you travel time leaving all worries for the present,

Where Guru’s Gupchup, Pachdu’s samosa, Bhokti’s kachouri and Bose’s Rasmalai are the cheapest yet best treat you can ever get,

A place for you if you are finding relief from modernity, just choose to take a casual walk after dinner and you can listen to the sound of crickets,

Where on a dry summer’s day, a newly arrived wind will gently enter without knock curiously blowing your house curtain’s and takes your sweat’s away,

 On monsoon’s it will smell of grain, may have just crossed paddy field and will be found excited for telling it's stories and sometimes it’s newly found joy will make you sing with it,

Where on a rainy night with no electricity, sweet noise of frog’s Ter Ter seems to be the only alive existence, and if you will allow it grow inside you, it will make you forget all your worries, while duck’s quack quack while walking carelessly towards pond down the street will once again compel you to land in your childhood when you used to believe fairy tale stories,

Gomoh, a destination you mustn’t forget to visit, if you truly wish to find yourself, spend time with your soul and listen what it has to say.

 (Dedicated to everyone of Gomoh and those who ever lived or visited )