(Written for someone very special on the day I was leaving dhanbad after 4 years of stay)
So many feelings are passing my mental screen and the strongest are those spent with you. My heart is heavy because I am carrying pain and grief with it.
Because You broke me apart,
You broke me into pieces,
and left me as it is,
I am trying to collect them.
I can't even blame you,
because I love you so much,
And I will always love you the same,
Because you were not a passing phenomena,
You are part of my being.
I will be back,
I will wait for you,
and even though my heart is weeping now, I know one day It shall laugh with you.
I will miss you dear,
and I will miss everything of yours,
Because these are not feelings,
they are now part of my existence.
My heart is crying,
But I know it will recover,
It shall learn not to cry because there is hope.
O lord! Please take me somewhere I don't feel so miserable, so malnourished.
Feel like crying but tears are not coming out,
because they know they will get wasted,
Love is and love will come back,
So don't get wasted.
Keep patience! Oh, my innocent silent heart, keep patience, keep waiting.
God can't be so cruel to you.
(From the pages of my dairy, written on 6th May 2017, morning 5 Am)
