They say you have to continue doing this because it's important, it's essential,
I said : But It doesn't make me happy,
They: Where does it comes from,It doesn't matter if you are earning good you should be happy,
And I said: It sounds as if being happy is compulsion, and I have no right of choosing against it,
They : As long as society Respect's your status you mustn't worry about happiness,
I : Then certainly society has been misguided, It needs reincarnation, and why are you so proud of your society, what I see is people celebrating harassing others, getting enjoyment in others humiliation, gossip is to find faults, criticizing creating jobs, they think its their right to encroach, interfere and comment, they take no second thought on threatening others, they themselves stratify then strive to get into power, those in power get right to dominate,
They don't care if others are frustrated, depressed, bored, lonely or not happy, they emphasize on following routine, being serious, appearing mature, being mature means talking seriously about serious things however stupid and unimportant they may be , happiness is considered to be directly proportional to earning money, they are either talking about money, thinking about money, or about how to make more of it, building houses, expanding property, marriage is must with or without love, producing kids, increasing population even if knowing its already too much for soil to feed, complaining everyday about crowd, queues, waiting list's yet encouraging others to produce their own because that's considered best way to leave a mark on mother-earth, knowingly spreading pollution then buying machine for not getting affected by it, cutting trees the most unselfish deities for selfish means and forgotten values of freedom, free-will, true love, sympathy, I hate this society,I hate being part of it, so I definitely don't care what it has to say about.
They: Its part of life, that's reality, we all have to go though it, we all have to be part of it.
I : I was knowing you won't understand, because you have been so much tamed that you can't even imagine what I would like you to see and feel.
They : What you want me to know about?
I : Happiness.
They : Ha! ha! ha!, Oh! shit, not again, so tell me what's happiness for you.
Happiness for me is "Total Freedom".
Freedom from what? Aren't you free?
That's why I said you have so much forgotten the taste of freedom that you have stopped knowing it.
Then tell me what's freedom for you.
Freedom for me is getting up everyday knowing that I am the owner of this day and I will do whatever I would like to do with it.
Freedom for me is having time for living each passing moment, noticing each passing detail, tasting all flavors of surrounding , listening sound of the wind and making it compose music with the lyrics written by my heart and always knowing what it has to say.
Freedom for me is living my dreams in reality and making it look even better than what it appears in dreams.
Freedom for me is doing everything possible with my body and surrounding and always been able to raise middle finger to those who even thought of wishing me do anything other than my will.
They : You have gonna mad, wandering in your own dreamworld, only because you hold a position in society, you earn good, you are settled, ask those who aren't.
I : Why the hell you want everyone to settle, I don't wanna settle,to settle is to stop, taking no more risk, no more adventure, taking nap in your comfort zone, how boring, keep your settlement with yourself, I don't need.
Everyone is dying to get settle how it could be boring.
It's because they lost all enthusiasm for rebelling and even those who wants to rebel let go of it because they know exceptions are not accepted.
You mean we aren't doing anything exceptional or unique, then how the world is progressing.
Yes you all are in dilemma that you are progressing because within the boundary there is a world of yours with finite knowledge and limited understanding, I can't help you unless you set yourself free and then you shall know the truth, know the infinite, total freedom the happiness.
You are saying as if you know it, how could you, you have never been free, and I think you are just dreaming of it, the happiness, actually it doesn't exist.
I am not dreaming, I am watching it now as if happening right here, I wish we could have seen it together and you would have known what I am talking about.
You are a dreamer come to reality.
My dear, its you, who is so much engrossed in the dream of a world where everyone is slave of someone and the only thing they are doing is slavery however they name it differently, that you are not making any attempt to see reality.
If I am dreaming why everyone has to be part of it.
If everyone is falling how they would know they are falling, you are all hypnotized to assume that you are born slave and not the one who made it all, can destroy it and can make it again and again.
If Everyone is hypnotized then how could you see it.
Its not only me, everyone could see it and you too do see it, but you have stopped believing your own witness.
Tell me how to do it.
You just have to know that you are not free and you have to fight for your freedom , you have to learn that this is not reality, you need to get out of it, scream for what you have been debarred of, what was always yours, listen to your heart and stop your mind if it interrupts.stop knowing, start feeling, and you shall know it.
I am trying...total freedom..happiness ....it looks beautiful....I am Happy.
( From the pages of my Dairy, written on 4th June 2015)
